Like everyone else in football I was shocked by the news that Fabrice Muamba suffered a cardiac arrest on the pitch at White Hart Lane on Saturday. In some respects it is incomprehensible: how can you explain a 23-year-old player collapsing on a football pitch?
I have nothing but sympathy for Muamba's family, his friends and his team-mates at Bolton. Those players who could only look on helplessly as their colleague was kept alive on the pitch will now have to go to training and be reminded that Fabrice is in a hospital in London and not on that training ground in Bolton.
I suspect it will be difficult for some of the Bolton players to go and play at White Hart Lane again, with the memories that stadium holds for them now. It will also be difficult for fans of both Tottenham and Bolton, given what they saw at the weekend.
There have been suggestions that Bolton may even pull out of the FA Cup if their players feel they cannot face a rescheduled game at White Hart Lane so soon after Muamba's collapse. That just shows how meaningless football is in these situations and you could not blame them one bit if they did feel compelled to take that course of action.
Bolton have an opportunity to get to an FA Cup semi-final, but if the majority of players feel they cannot play then they will not hesitate to pull out, I am sure. The thing about football is that there is always another game. There is always another opportunity to play in an FA Cup quarter-final, and to return to White Hart Lane so soon after what happened could prove too much for some of the players.
It is the same for anyone in any walk of life. If a certain place brings back awful memories then you don't want to visit it again. No doubt what happened will stick with certain players into next season and beyond. They will find it difficult emotionally to go back to White Hart Lane, and so will the fans. Games between Tottenham and Bolton will have a different meaning now.
This will also have deeply affected the Tottenham players, I know that from personal experience. While the two situations are of course very, very different, I was on the bench at Old Trafford when Coventry City's David Busst suffered one of the most horrific injuries ever seen on a football pitch. His leg was snapped in half in a horrendous accident and sadly he never played again. It was very distressing for all who were present on that day.
It took Peter Schmeichel a long time to overcome the shock as he was one of the first on the scene, and they had to wash the pitch to remove the blood. In fact, Peter even found it difficult to go to the area in which the incident occurred after it happened: he didn't want to take goal kicks from that side of the six-yard box. Both Peter and Denis Irwin were horrified by the incident and even now it is a memory they wish they could purge.
Thankfully I never found myself in a situation as a player where I saw a team-mate or opponent collapse like Muamba did. But I was covering the game on Saturday and what happened is something you do not ever want to witness.
The reaction from the other players on the pitch told you how serious the problem was. You could see when they were in tears that something horrendous was occurring. Thankfully Muamba survived, but the fight now continues as he remains critically ill in hospital.
It is hard to understand when something like that happens to a player at the peak of physical fitness, who trains hard every day. We still don't know exactly what has occurred, but no matter what conditioning people do and how much they are monitored, sometimes it is impossible to anticipate these kinds of events.
We didn't have any screening procedures at all when we played the game. You had a medical when you signed but that was about it. Things have improved beyond all recognition since, but you can't catch everything.
Now we can only hope that Muamba pulls through.